it’s scary how much i trust you. how much i’ve trusted you from the first moment i’ve ever even spoke to you.
it’s scary how much i care about you. i’d take a bullet for you without hesitation.
it’s scary how easily you could hurt me. a few words and my world would be over.
it’s scary to think that i could be so in love with you. and you don’t feel the same.

my thoughts tonight are just not on. my mojo is not right. my anxiety is through the roof.
f u c k m e.

i’m scared. i don’t want to admit anything to myself because all of the sudden that makes all of my problems so real. and i just want to be okay, so fucking bad.

so yesterday alex told me i had a big butt. and i was really torn whether or not he was trying to tell me he liked it, or if he was telling me i’m fat. idkkkk. i need to lose weight :( haha

i haven’t stopped smiling for the past 8 hrs.

that awkward moment when the person you are texting thinks you have a boyfriend and a successful, happy relationship. but you just so happen to be single as fuck for the past six months.

i finally fall asleep. and within an hour i wake up from the most disturbing night terror i’ve ever had. i found my two year ex boyfriend, his twin, their roommate, and two of their friends dead in my car. not just dead, they had lumps all of their faces; they had tattoo images carved into every inch of their skin, which they were colored red with blood; they had been half burned; they had internal organs sticking out of them. and i woke up.
holy fucking fuck. the things that go through my head while i’m asleep. and now i’m awake again. just lovely.

how come all of the terrible characters that we read about in ap lit remind me of myself? god. i’m an awful person.

i can not wait any longer to graduate. and today sucks.

i think it is comical how oblivious and naive some people are to what goes on in this world. 

so friday i am getting my senior pictures taken. and i have a major breakout going on all over my face. not to mention i am in the worst moods ever. i fucking love being a girl

ashest0ashlee:

i hate my parents. 

hate people with nice parents.

so go fuck yourself. 

i hate my parents. 

hate people with nice parents.

so go fuck yourself.